The Lucky Girl

2012-01-28T23:09:00.000+08:00

My boyfriend is finally coming down to KL to visit meeeeeee ahhhhhhhhhh
\ o / I"M THE HAPPIEST GIRLFRIEND ALIVEEEEEE heh

Niceeee

2012-01-27T21:32:00.001+08:00

I made some new friends today!

as childish as i may sound, i'm still happy though they're only kids :O AGE DOESN"T MATTER ANYWAYYY.

her name's joey, her mom's michell and her younger sister is alencia i think. haha

really lovely family :)

Though i'd have to lie

2012-01-02T12:34:00.001+08:00

I'm glad i'm doing long distance with him,

he'll never have to watch me cry.

It's haunting me.

2012-01-02T12:25:00.000+08:00

i don't know what else to do.

sometimes someone's words are so strong,
the scene will keep replaying in your head,

driving you crazy.

It will rain.

2011-12-28T18:05:00.001+08:00

If you walk away, everyday it will rain.

Long distance

2011-12-11T01:13:00.001+08:00

i guess the war begins now

It's not easy but you just have to give it a try.

2011-12-02T18:40:00.003+08:00

Recently someone who's rather close to me has passed away.

It took me quite sometime until I regain my spirit bak.

He's my drama teacher, Russell.

It isn't easy to let go of him especially when you have so many memories with him.

I thought I let him go already but I came to realise that it was only what I thought.

I can never truly let go of someone .

Moral of this story,

Just try your beat to let go because it makes things better. And know that he's in a better place.

Our first anniversary 15th November 2011

2011-11-16T13:06:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was our one month anniversary. I didn't realize how fast time slip through our fingers like sand. The more you try to hold on, the faster it slips away. So yeah, he sort of surprised me but I sort of figured it out haha. Hmm. He bought me a rose. 6 macaroons. A typo card :) I thought it was really sweet but at the same time, I thought he should have wasted his time and money. He made my day :) despite being caught in the rain and having to study at the library the entire day.

It's pretty funny actually because the both of us didn't know it has been a month already. It feels like it has only been a few weeks.

Here I am again, blogging at the library. Sigh can't wait for finals to end. With good grades of course haha how I wish Jon is here to be my tutor :)

11.11.11 11.11am 11.11pm

2011-11-13T07:56:00.002+08:00

so yeah, i heard, people had been tad been dongkay dong dong over the date 11.11.11 11.11am 11.11pm because it only happens once in a lifetime! :)

pretty cool thing i gotta say ;)

isn't this awesome or what.

Time to mug

2011-11-12T12:27:00.003+08:00

So yeah exam's around the corner. Everyone is starting to mug. Of course that includes me and my sister haha. We stayed at the library until 1am yesterday. Today I plan to stay at the library until 2am :) gosh I wish I could get rid of my eye bags :(

Our song

2011-11-02T14:30:00.003+08:00

hehe i just dedicated a song to him today, it's i can wait forever by simple plan :)

i don't know why but this song explains how i'm feeling. i guess music has this magic to make us feel this way :)

music never dies.

and yeah, the song he dedicated to me was the best thing by relient k :) teehee!

In a relationship

2011-10-26T11:20:00.003+08:00

so.....hehe, the title says it all :)

but i don't plan to make it public.

because my family wouldn't allow me to be in a relationship, also

because i don't wanna make a big fuss about it :)

but that doesn't mean i don't love him. hehe

he's not my everything but i adore him more than i adore myself :)

what i like about him most

2011-10-21T05:40:00.002+08:00

his eyes, his smile, his silliness, his seriousness, his bublyness, the way he catch me looking at him and gave me a chicky smile, the way he told me how much he likes me, putting facts into my head..

haha

ChiengQian: i look so unglam :(

xx: Haha, this isn't a fashion show.

Awesome man :)

2011-10-20T15:13:00.002+08:00

He's my awesome man. haha

i walked pass a bookstore with him that day and we saw the same book (awesome man)

he then asked me don't i think he's awesome?

i said....no...he's ego. haha

but deep inside, he's more than awesome to me :) i just didn't wanna say that.

in fact, he's too awesome for me.

i wish he doesn't read this. haha

he'd probably be unhappy about it.

It hurts so bad, but it's worth it :)

2011-10-16T18:09:00.001+08:00

Polaroid :)

Spring Fest (check) Prom ( ) AHHHHH

2011-10-14T06:57:00.002+08:00

AHHHH I"M SO NERVOUS FOR PROM!

so.....yeah, spring fest is finally over! :) had a great time yesterday with the girls, and jen (a guy). hahaha

we performed SuperBass by Nicki Minaj, apparently a lot of people thought we sounded like a proper band performing on stage, in other words, we were awesome. hahaha

lei rapped, pei and alexis were the vocalist, jen played the drum and me, i played the guitar ;)

hehehe, so much fun :3 fingers are soring but....who cares, it was worth it!

and i had the BEST dinner last night with someone :) he's perfect in a different way no matter how i see it. haha ... i have a feeling i'm in love.......

he's sweet :) i never wanna forget the moments i had with him. haha wonder what will happen to us next year and the year after next. (covers eyes)

ANYWAY, prom is tomorrow!! AHHHHHHH I"M SO SCAREDDDDDD!!!! i haven't bought my accessories yet! :O AHHHHH and, I"M STILL FAT!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHH THAT DOESN"T HELP AT ALL. still...some parts of me can't wait for prom. teehee *in my love bubble* :)

Three Kilograms, YAY!

2011-10-08T07:11:00.002+08:00

AHHHHHHH the excitement of able to shed weight! :)

of course i didn't do it in the unhealthy way. hehe

well, partly. haha

i fell sick i guess that's one of the reasons that cause my weight to drop.

then i went on a healthy diet and exercise at the same time with my personal trainer's, Edward, help :3

oh well, going to the gym again today :) Adiousaaaa ma love!

The best decision

2011-10-05T08:53:00.003+08:00

Sometimes the best decision doesn't give you what you want.

i finally realised the reason i was upset.

it was clear in my head what was the best decision but

i want to be with him, i really do. will i regret it, i don't know, but that's what i want

i adore him and i want to do it everyday but my head is telling me no

it's a foolish reckless decision i'm gonna regret making

what upsets me most is knowing i have to let this feeling go.

The power of mother hen

2011-09-23T23:57:00.002+08:00

recently i've been called 'mother hen', all thanks to josh, he started it.

haha. but today

i discovered something. mother hens are powerful in a sense that they protect their chicks from eagles and keep them cozy and warm.

i feel like a true mother hen today. and i'm proud to say that. haha, laugh all you want! :)

my friends were hurt today and, i'm glad i was there when they needed me.

it felt good to be needed. but it sure hurts me to see them being hurt.

i've made up my mind today, i will be there to protect my friends whenever wherever possible.

i'm gonna be like a mother hens protecting her chicks :)

not a good day for most people

I'm breaking up with you

2011-09-17T19:30:00.003+08:00

I SHOULD BE STUDYING :'O

but it's not easy to focus on doing only one thing in 24 hours

You're driving me up the wall, Economics.

i'm so sorry to disappoint you economics, i wanted to give you ALL the attention you need but..

things are just not working out between us, sorry, let's break up

*CHUCKLES* hehe

that's not possible ._.

Neverland, not a bad idea

2011-09-16T23:47:00.002+08:00

so i went to momu ball with my sister and we had loads of fun :)

then there's this afterparty at neverland (a club just in case you don't know what's that), and we had the priority to get in first. we didn't have to queue, didn't have to pay :)

all we had to do was have our ID-s checked.

nothing much really, i had fun dancing (which most of you can't imagine me doing). hahaha, basically i enjoyed myself there, but then i got tired of it. Clubbing. not really my thing.

at the club: Got hit on the chest, danced in heels.

result: burst blisters = not cool

then my sister told people at the ball about my prom date, and when she came back, she told people about my encounter at the ball.

yeah. yeah. (in a monotone) so a guy checked me out at the ball. maybe it was because i was too scary or something.

One-sided love you say?

2011-09-14T20:51:00.004+08:00

i'm starting to think if this is a one-sided thing :)

i have not been updating my blog lately :(

been busy with my essays, last minute work guarantees you nothing but despair, SO DON"T DO IT :O heheh

just another crush :) or is it?

Ladies night

2011-09-06T11:20:00.001+08:00

I love :))) hehe!

A day i feel like taking pictures due to boredom :)

2011-09-01T12:12:00.006+08:00

'Hello spring' :))

well, i haven't been posting lately because i had so many things to talk about but didn't know where to start.

i guess i can start with, the word prom.

so....

someone asked me to be his date.

a really sweet and mean guy who always teases me yet adorable :)

let's see, hmm, he knelt on one knee and asked me,

yes it worked, i agreed to be his prom date.

it has been a month already. the title 'Josh's promdate' has been on me ever since then -,-

mm well, i'm quite happy actually, but i just didn't wanna tell him that, hehe!

i guess you can say we're closer now :)

yes yes, i haven't combed my hair -.- gee.

i had a dream

2011-08-19T08:24:00.001+08:00

Come to think of it

2011-08-10T16:05:00.002+08:00

It's pretty weird :)

i just found out i have a lil' night blindness, can't really see things clearly in the dark and it scares me. haha

maybe it's because of that, i tend to feel scared walking home in the dark but not show it because.... (okay fine, you shall know the truth) i like to make people think of me as a strong, cool girl. -.-

anyway, that's not my point :O my point is, whenever i'm afraid, i hear voices in my head, i guess it's my own voice but it calms me down. it's not long, it's just 4 words, haha, it was

Everything will be alright.

City, the drunkards' territory :)

2011-08-05T20:06:00.003+08:00

today was the first time i had fun taking pictures with my classmate :D (let me finish my sentence) in the toilet. hahaha

we were in the girls' washroom, explain why there was no guys :3 hee

my day was good, i relieved some stress, by going out with my sis :))

it's friday night, so we couldn't really stay out late, the city is the drunkards' territory on friday nights :)

I didn't know i had such short legs until i put on a jeans with a pretty short length and still thought it was long for me -.- ironic.

Is it true that

2011-08-05T06:33:00.002+08:00

nice girls finish last? :(

from what i know, my crush has a thing for bad girls. haha

those who dyes their hair :) unfortunately, i'm not that kind of girl

Sorry i don't agree with this statement :/

2011-08-04T06:40:00.004+08:00

" You don't always have to pretend to be strong, there's no need to prove all the time that everything is going well, you shouldn't be concerned about what other people are thinking, cry if you need to, it's good to cry out all your tears because only then will you be able to smile again. "

because if you're weak, all you can do is 'pretend' to be strong. as time goes by, you'll eventually be strong.

weak will bring you no good in this era. you can rely on anyone to protect you, but you can always rely on yourself, to protect yourself, it's impossible for you to leave, YOU, right? HAHA

I GOT THE MOVES LIKE JAGGER :D

A new friend

2011-08-02T20:57:00.003+08:00

His name is Henry :D

i went out with my sister to dinner today :) then 2 friends of hers joined us.

Peikyin and Henry.

it's because of henry that i have the chance to FINALLY have a ride by car in Melbourne for the first time! :D

tonight is by far the best night i had in melbourne! :)

hehe Henry's really polite and nice, and he looks so cool when he drives!

*che, please don't tell him that*

so yeah, we went to Giraffe Cafe for dinner and cha time after that for dessert ! :D

gosh, how i wish this happens everyday :)) hee

ps, AT LEAST i gym k! :) hee

never regret as long as you're satisfied to your heart's content! :D

Here's a personality test, there are five animals on the train,

lion, cow, horse, monkey and rabbit.

if you have to let down every one of them, which would you let go first?

arrange it according to your likes

eg: lion rabbit horse monkey cow

i'll tell you about it personally ;) heee

what can a bookmark prove anyway :) i'm thinkingggg, I"M THINKINGG

2011-08-01T23:16:00.005+08:00

hmm, i gave my friend a bookmark yesterday because we were reading 'the quiet american' and i have an extra bookmark.

he took it but gave me his 'not-so-special' one to make him feel less considerate.

the bookmark was quite (hmm....i can't find a word for it) because this is what written there

' Truly, madly, deeply...... in love with you! '

maybe he didn't realise that but that's just how it is. haha

i wanna write his name behind but what would people think if they saw that?

i wonder how, i wonder why, lalalala :DD

2011-08-01T21:02:00.002+08:00

Song of the day: Perfect two by Auburn :)

hmm, so this was the conversation i had with steve before lecture started :)

Chieng: noo, i prefer guys who are clean and neat!

Steve: ChiengQian, ChiengQian, guys would change for 3 reasons, women, money, or death.

Wow, words of wisdom i see :)) hee

i like him more and more each day

2011-07-29T07:03:00.002+08:00

it's just undeniable that the more people have knowledge about him, the more people like him.

i didn't know such a person exists, until now, i met him.

goshhhhhhhhhhh, why do people i meet have to be so incredibly, impressive.

The compasses of my life :)

2011-07-23T08:46:00.004+08:00

i felt so blunt for the first time, for not suspecting anything.

as i walked in the restaurant, the few familiar faces turned to me and say

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHIENG QIAN!

of course, anyone would think it was a coincidence, to see your friends there.

at least that's what i thought.

but my 'so-called-date' went to grab a seat at their table, that's when i realise everything was ACCORDING TO THEIR plan. -.-

now here's the self-embarrassing part, where tears start rolling down my cheeks, and i tried so hard to suck it back in, but NOOO, it just wouldn't, stupid tear ducts -.-

after awhile, they handed me the presents, i could hold my tears, but when i opened them....

dhum dhum dhum dhummmm.....

tears started rolling down again, dang it :/

it was what i wanted but couldn't get. the bracelet

you guys.....seriously made this the best birthday i ever had, for now :) hehe

love you en zhen, pei yinn, jia yun, rachel, yi may, bron win!! :DD

yesterday was the most touching night i ever had :)

you guys are the compasses of my life :) haha

i stand no chance...?

2011-07-21T08:10:00.002+08:00

he's always surrounded by attractive girls.

my chances of him looking at me the way he looks at them, is very slim.

i should just forget it.

my wish for my 18th birthday,

i wish my hugs can reach everyone. please.. pleasee.

how can you expect someone to love you..

2011-07-20T19:14:00.006+08:00

when you don't even love yourself.

anyway, my birthday is tomorrow, and i've written a letter to my dad and mother.

do you think i should mail it to them? haha, or should i scan it into my lappie..

hmm, my week isn't too bad, due to my results, i'm motivated to study :)

i finally understand the quotes "You can't have any successes unless you can accept failure" and "Failure changes for the better, success for the worse" and "You always pass failure on your way to success" :)

"Gucheee guchee goo means i love you-phineas and ferb" awhhhhh :D

"I just don't see how a world that makes such wonderful things could be bad. –Ariel (Little Mermaid)"

i got my results back

2011-07-18T17:02:00.003+08:00

it wasn't good, Truth Be Told, i nearly cried after pei gave me a hug.

but that feeling didn't last long, i returned to the happy-go-lucky me soon after.

this should be the worst day ever, the day i swear to never give myself a good time

but why, why instead of that, i'm....fine...?

Lose the thought dude :)

2011-07-16T09:25:00.002+08:00

so yeah, my birthday's next thursday

if you 'forgot' or don't plan to give me anything, IT"S TOTALLY FINE!! don't worry about it, i won't bite you or anything. haha

but if you do have something you wanna give, LOSE THE THOUGHT.

the best gift you guys can give me is to keep me company :)

but, most of you are pretty good at that, like pei yinn and jia yun, ngawwwwww xD

do note that i love you guys very much :) in terms of friendship -.-

Who do you think you are? oh right, you were my crush.

2011-07-14T16:33:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, we're better off not knowing.

today i found out what was his feelings towards me, what he thought of me

honestly, i was upset. i should be happy inside my love bubble but no..

after knowing the truth, the words were like a broken recorder playing the same thing over and over inside my head.

since it's already in the past though it has only happened a few months ago

i shouldn't murmur about it, i don't see a point in doing so.

i think i was upset, not because of the detail, but realise it was in the past.

i'd rather not know something that happened in the past, because i'm not there anymore. i've moved on.

the plumbers came today, wanted to blog about that, but, i changed my mind. yeh, humans do that, nothing to be surprised about. haha xD

PeiYinn tweeted "Leave your feelings and shove them aside. Other things are much bigger than that".

i totally agree :)

i call him, the plumber. haha

2011-07-12T18:28:00.003+08:00

had a lil trouble with the plumber in the past few days

the troubles ended today when the plumber came and boy

he was good looking, and young. HAHA

i think i blushed when he asked for my number.

don't worry, i kept my cool, phew, glad nothing embarrassing happened

What hurts the most (heart)

2011-07-12T15:47:00.001+08:00

to the people who have a broken heart, live your spirits high alright! :)

by the way, i love that song 'what hurts the most'

hehe, updated my playlist! :D

yes jia, i referred to your blog posts :P hehehe

Skiing is an addictive sport! :))

2011-07-10T21:50:00.006+08:00

I'm back from Mount Buller! :D

this is indeed a trip worth remembering.

Here's a short video! :)

Dear flower, She's no you :)

2011-07-06T13:58:00.002+08:00

Isn't she a beauty? :)

you're the flower i ever dreamt, she's only a picture on a magazine,

She's no you....she's no you :)

Flexibility

2011-07-04T11:06:00.003+08:00

sometimes, we shouldn’t be stubborn about some matter, we should be flexible enough to change according to the environment, the changes made and the people.

what’s done is done, there’s nothing we can do to change the past, all we can do is....not repeat history itself :)

being stubborn is like, holding a pile of sand in your hand and not wanting to let go

but, if you don’t let go, how are you going to gain more? :)

Wearing dress is indicating that you have a date..?

2011-06-30T19:59:00.003+08:00

who set that rule huh??? :O

i wore dress today simply because....

it's a good sunny day :D and i want to, that's why :OOOO

NOT BECAUSE I HAVE A DATE OR ANYTHING LIKE THAT.

friends i met on the street would give me the look like "whoa someone has a date"

because they would look up and down and eventually ask me :) pooh.

ohhhh, i have twitter now :D follow me follow me! hehe

username: thechieng

ps:the girl in the picture looks so sweet :)

Last day of exams- tomorrow

2011-06-29T20:06:00.003+08:00

YAY, am gonna go to Crown with my sister to celebrate tomorrow :D how awesome can my day be! hehe

i have trouble uploading pictures :(

A day the fog kept us amused :D

2011-06-28T23:05:00.002+08:00

DID YOU KNOW THAT ...... :O

if you stand with someone who spikes his hair, at your height, he's more likely to get strike by the thunder? :D

because of the negative ions and positive ions matter, hehe.

watched 'bridesmaids' today, it was a good movie but it was TOO sick :(

the movie started with sex and ended with sex, why can't it be WITHOUT sex.

However, my sister and i learned a few lessons from that movie,

what lessons?

that's for us to know, and you to find out :)

Warning: Really sick movie.(18sx)

I'm proud of you

2011-06-27T16:28:00.000+08:00

Three words

2011-06-26T17:03:00.001+08:00

I forgive you.

it's a rather easy task to forgive but it's very hard to forget about what happened

it's yet another challenge we'd have to encounter

Accept opinions, no matter how bad they sound, interpret them then make a move

2011-06-25T06:01:00.003+08:00

Don't be afraid of opinions given to you about how bad you are

...because accepting them is the only way to be a better you :)

Shhhhh : Do not gossip

2011-06-24T18:34:00.002+08:00

It's the first lesson my dad taught me in Sec 2.

Gossip is a type of poison that would bring consequences to three people involve.

First person: The person who gossips to another.

Second person: The person gossiped by the first.

Third person: The person who listens to it.

even if you gossip, gossip about the good, not the bad, because when bad words come out from your mouth, it stinks, it makes your mouth seems poisonous :)

Mouth that always talk bad is like a poisonous snake

Mouth that always compliment are mouth that "spits flower"

Sleeping disorder leads to.....

2011-06-23T13:11:00.002+08:00

Weight gaining, self-praising and.....mental disorder! :)

Smile to yourself every morning when you wake up, you’ll feel better because deep down you know YOU will always be there for you :)

By far the worst but best day of my life

2011-06-22T08:00:00.002+08:00

What day is that? you will find out at the end of this post

it's a windy day and a girl has a drama exam.

A drama exam that requires her to wear a mini skirt, it's not the subject's fault, i guess you could say that it's her fault for wanting to dress up her character that way.

at a point when she reached the spot where the wind gathers, her skirt flew up and her bottom was flashed. you get what i mean ( undies, thigh, what else)

but she didn't make an effort to cover her bottom, instead, she covered her face, trying to remain anonymous.

she reached her drama class, dressed up herself with fuzzy brows, pair of long colourful socks, uneven lipsticks and messy hair that caused her headache after that. wherever she went, people laugh at her, saying they can't look at her face for it would make them laugh.

when it was MY turn, when i started to read my lines, my examiners started laughing because i made my voice sound funny on purpose. thus, i giggled and forgot my lines.

now, what a day, this isn't mother's day, isn't father's day, isn't my birthday, but what i call...

Chieng's experiencing day

i guess you could say that it's the worst day of my life so far, but, come to think of it, this kind of things doesn't happen often, i can't make everyone laugh everyday by walking,

i don't wear miniskirt on a wind everyday and have it blown up, right?

haha, so now, whenever i recall this day, i laugh.

for guys, it feels like your pants dropped while you're walking, that's how it feels for girls to have their skirt blown upwards. hhahaha

nothing to be embarrassed about, it's called life-experience :)

Drama exam

2011-06-18T13:32:00.002+08:00

i don't mind falling a hundred times, having bruises all over my body,

as long as you tell me that it's worth it.

is the lemon is worth to squeeze..

Can't wait, i just can't :)

2011-06-18T08:53:00.001+08:00

ahh, how i wish exam ends faster so that i can go to mount buller with my parents and sister :)

Looks like i have a visitor who dropped by :)

2011-06-08T07:41:00.004+08:00

I just want you to know that you are not alone.

Despite that, i'm just going to blog about something i wanna share today.

i'm mentally and physically exhausted.

i find mentally exhausted is more of a pain compared with physically exhausted.

i think...to me...mental exhaustion happens when you talk to pessimist or emo people.

if they do not take account of what i am trying to tell them, that i'm there for them, and that they are not alone,

i will just feel upset and thus act negatively.

my conclusion is, negative ions will be passed to you by talking with someone who's in a bad condition*mentally. Stay away from them if you don't want to be the next who commit suicide, otherwise, be like me, stay by them and provide as much help as possible. not the ones out of your league though :)

i don't want to know....

2011-06-06T19:08:00.002+08:00

I was really upset today,

not because i gained weight again, (haha)

but because someone quarrelled over a small matter and i was the reason

i....i really don't like to watch people argue, or quarrel, especially when i'm the reason they quarrel

the worst part was that i had to watch them quarrel without their knowledge.

i wonder if they'd stop if they knew that i was there listening, watching.

I envy luiz

2011-06-03T14:38:00.002+08:00

how i wish my parents are here with me too :)

i miss my mommy daddy so much♥

i just gained 7 kg! HECK

2011-06-02T12:05:00.003+08:00

T.T is it due to stress....if it is, PLEASE SHED THE WEIGHTS OFF MY BODY BY THIS END OF THE MONTH CHIENG QIAN, I BEG OF YOU! ToT

Everyone is falling apart, this tells me that i have to stay strong, maybe stronger

2011-06-01T15:20:00.004+08:00

i felt weak a few days before everyone starting to fall apart.

having to witness that happen, i vow to never fall apart and stay by their side, give them energy to go through hardships :)

When i was four, i wished my boyfriend would come with a bouquet of 'that' flower i once loved. Unlike roses, it's simple and tiny, but, i was a simple girl with innocent thoughts.

It's not as easy as it sounds

2011-05-31T22:12:00.001+08:00

i think keeping your feelings in control is harder than refraining myself from eating meat.

it's MUCH easier to be a vegetarian than to control your feelings for someone.

any advice? :)

KACHEEKA! :D

A name so familiar it triggered my curiosity

2011-05-30T17:41:00.004+08:00

Huang xing yang. he's coming over. I was shocked when rach mentioned his name

i haven't heard this name in 6 years already. haha. he was my tuition mate in standard 5/6 :)

well, i don't think he remembers me anyway, but i remember him as though as i just met him yesterday. memories are still fresh in my head :) he was a very sweet and lovely boy. hopefully nothing has changed over these few years :)

isn't autumn nice? :)

2011-05-28T11:38:00.001+08:00

Credits to RachelChang :)

I have nosebleeds every now and then, but i just don't know why.

tell me if you do kayy :)

If i can only count on one person in the world, it would be my dad

2011-05-22T23:46:00.004+08:00

i had a talk with my dad today, it's normal now i guess, i call him almost everyday, always seeking advice from him. though it'd be inappropriate but i don't want to forget how i feel tonight.

daddy is the one person i trust most. the one who always offer me his shoulder to lean on, the one who always tease me when i'm unhappy, making really lame jokes when i'm sad, laughing at me when i'm crying. That's my dad. haha

well, as i said, i talked to him on the phone at 11pm. i was touched to the extent that i cried like a baby. he was at someone's dinner and he walked out as soon as i called. i told him that i'll call next time, wouldn't wanna interrupt the atmosphere. He refused and instead he told me something so.......(i can't explain the feeling).....i burst into tears.

" Your call is more important, i've been carrying you around since you were a baby, and i will continue doing so, you can always talk to me and i will be there for you "

that sentence made me speechless and tears just couldn't stop flowing down on my cheeks.

the only thing i could say was

" daddy...you're gonna make me cry.... i don't wanna cry. "

A picture says it all

2011-05-19T11:46:00.001+08:00

JIA XIONG, SHEREENA, DON"T STALK ME PLEASEE :)

Power of a friend :)

2011-05-06T15:19:00.003+08:00

i had a bad day, but steve made me feel much better on our way home. haha

he resembles a lot like my brother :) i'm really glad i have such a friend.

Autumn festival was AWESOME! :)

2011-05-06T07:12:00.003+08:00

well, like i said, i ruined the song :( but i had fun! :) hehe

and after last night's performance, i was surprised to have received 5 friend requests, which is not normal. haha

and, if i see 'him' in my class again, i'm gonna take up the courage and say hi and tell him how well was he!

lastly, cheeeesrio :D

Half of my heart - John Mayer, Taylor swift

Imperfect :(

2011-05-05T22:28:00.002+08:00

even after performing the song 'perfect by pink' i still feel so imperfect.

the song would be better, correction.. MUCH MUCH better, without me :/

oh oh and there's this new guy in my accounting tutorial class who is VERY good in playing guitar :) so inspiring! hehe

or is it just me...?

2011-05-04T08:09:00.003+08:00

why does it feels like i'm being treated well here :/

almost everyone i know is nice to me, i guess people here are just like that.

if i was in malaysia and receive such treatment, i'd think otherwise already.

example: I THINK SHE/HE's INTERESTED IN ME :O (perasan much)

hahaha

BumBum :(

2011-05-02T18:36:00.002+08:00

i fell on my bumbum during drama today T.T

thanks to you-know-who. haha

had fun though xD

i definitely learned my lessson. learned NEVER stand in between two people who are pushing each other when you know you are no challenge to them. ;)

collect leaves for my dear classmates back home. i miss you guys :)

Sleepless night, first day of school after break, what could be worse?

2011-05-02T07:38:00.002+08:00

it's really frustrating when you don't get enough sleep :/

i lay awake in bed from 10-2 last night and i think i fell asleep at 2.45

hopefully i don't fall asleep during class today

Check this out! :)

2011-04-30T15:58:00.000+08:00

Hot Chelle Rae - Tonight Tonight

Ardeer Primary School, I'll be back :)

2011-04-28T20:09:00.004+08:00

Went to Ardeer Primary School this afternoon as a voluntary worker

and i really enjoyed my day there.

it took us(my sister and i) an hour to reach there, switched trams at collins street, and took the train down to Ballarat via viclink :)

i love the kids so much to the extent that i'm considering to work as a primary school teacher in the future. that's just a thought though.

they were tricky at times, but, sincere and innocent as far as i know :)

i wish to see them again sometime soon.

especially matthew, always hiding behind me and listens to me. hahaha, a really cute boy :)

Matthew: Can i whistle? JUST ONCE PLEASEEEEEEE

Chieng: Hahaha, alright alright, just once alright :)

Lesson 1: Independent :)

2011-04-27T09:27:00.002+08:00

The start of something new i'd say ;)

NOT BAD ALREADY KAYY, i eat healthily and that's all that matter :) hee.

Movies again

2011-04-26T17:36:00.002+08:00

Watched movies again today, Iron Man 2, Taken and Clash of the titans
YAY, i finally watched Clash of the titans! :D
i wanted to watch that since january 2010 T.T finally got to watch it *wipe tears* jaykay x)
Taken is a great movie. If you wanna watch a breath taking movie, watch that, it'll take your breath away, don't forget to have popcorn by your side ;)

Shoutbox slash sorry jiaaaa :)

2011-04-26T12:12:00.003+08:00

Decided to change my shoutbox, sorry jia xP all the messages you left have gone to waste xP AM SO SORRY. I had to change it because something was wrong with my new shoutbox. haha so bear with me! * love love hug hug * x)

I have the coolest brother who takes the coolest pictures :)

2011-04-25T18:42:00.008+08:00

and my personal favourite....

not only that, his pictures, never fail to make me smile all the time

it means a lot to me :)

ps: that's because he has many funny pictures of himself (hahaha:X)

2011-04-24T22:16:00.001+08:00

Changes made everywhere! :)

Thought i should change my blog skin since i've not changed it for about 3 years....already? :)

haha. what do you think? something different, simpler, and fresh eih? ;) haha

anyway, FEED MY FISHES! :D on top if you would! :)

♫ Always You ♫ Sophie Zelmani

2011-04-24T13:37:00.000+08:00

It's always you :)

It has always been.

If it wasn't the oceans,
wasn't the breezes,
wasn't the white sands,
I might not be needed,

If I could sleep through the coal mines,
If I could breathe through hatred,
If I could, work through the summer,
then I woulnd't feel so humble,

oh you, it's always you,
it's always you.

If red roses weren't so lovely,
Wine didn't taste so good,
Stars weren't so romantic,
Then I could do what I should

Oh you, it's always you
It's always you.
Oh you, it's always you
It's always you

If you love, I could command it,
Get your head, to understand it,
I'd go twice, around the world,
Even though, I may not find it.

Oh you, it's always you,
It's always you.
You, it's always you,
It's always you

2011-04-23T15:20:00.005+08:00

Someone stole our car :O

somebody call 911 ! ahhhhhh (inside joke-ChaiYune)haha

went to Allansmusic with JiaXiong today. Don't get me wrong, he's just a friend and i was nice(?) enough to bring him there to look around and play around. haha

we had a good time, i just love bringing friends there and watch them enjoy themselves :)

i know i enjoyed myself, i'm glad i have so many friends who share the same interest as me- music

OH OH OH, we stopped by and listened to a korean guy singing on the street. He wasn't collecting money, he was just performing, for free :) HE WAS GOOOOD and nice too heh x) then then then, after he finished, no one clapped and i was the only one, HE SAW then he was doing the lip thing " Thank you :) " Other than that..i wasn't sure but he looked to me when he was singing, maybe it was because i'm a chinese....? :) i had a good day, Thank you JiaXiong. ( music buddy xD )

What i said about her on my previous post was mean.....it'll break her heart, but she has to know them, or else she'll do it over and over again. As they say, truth hurts, you taught me that :)

2011-04-22T19:41:00.003+08:00

She made me

wish I never knew tzu chi.

dislike tzu chi.

regret coming here.

lose my patience.

wanna get out of here.

i hate being instructed by her all the time.

and this will be the last time i say hate :)

2011-04-21T18:49:00.003+08:00

Just another movie addict.

Nothing's better than having a movie marathon with your darling old sister.

haha, we dropped by at big W today and bought a few good books & movies.

I call it movie cravings. hahaha

as you can see, we bought, You again, The switch, Love and other impossible pursuits and Harry potter and the deathly hallows, it was a lil scary okay :O the harry potter one -.-

oh oh oh, i bought a book, which is rather rare, and i just can't wait to read it! xD

Ps: among the four movies, I like harry potter and the deathly hallows the most

2011-04-21T11:48:00.002+08:00

mmm..... yummmmmmm :) heh
pssh, i forgot to mention.

I'm on a one-month break! :D uber awesome!

Despite that, i still have some work to do during the break.

such as reading 'a thousand years of good prayers' or practising my guitar :) performance is on the 5th of may

ah, so nervous. hopefully everything goes well on that day :)

2011-04-20T00:18:00.003+08:00

It's the Mok twins' birthday! :)
what more can i say, they rock ;)
Had a really good time tonight :)

Happy birthday ShenKhueen, ShenTing! :)

2011-04-17T08:22:00.002+08:00

They kept secrets from me,

i'm okay with it

because i understand,

they have their reasons for doing so.

who doesn't have one..?

2011-04-16T11:55:00.002+08:00

We had a good time, didn't we? :)

and that's all that matters.

To the best company, great friend, great AlbertHouse-mate, great guitar tutor, great...,

Jonathan Chew

i wish i could tell you this...

but i do not have the courage.

i will miss you a lot jon,

thank you for being such a good friend.

you encouraged me to learn guitar, sing with confidence, and most importantly

you made me a happier person.

you're a great friend, just so you know, but i guess you'll never gonna know this, because i'm never gonna tell you that. it's too mushy..

i'll definitely miss you

Distance shouldn't be an obstacle for a friendship to last.

i really really really treasure this friendship, guess it wasn't meant to last in melbourne..

2011-04-15T12:41:00.003+08:00

Just Words

i have so much to tell to that someone,

but i just can't tell her in person.

Bron and I were afraid to hurt her more

she was indeed something fragile that we hand with care ( a metaphor )

she always reads my blog, so, i guess she's reading this now :)

Dear pei, you are not alone. i can be really talkative at times ( maybe at all times ) but i just can't get the right sentences out :) as far as i know, people come and go, you've probably heard that a several times already from different kinds of people, but let me finish. Those people who have passed away, they won't look back. Those who are living(you) have to do the same too, because you have a life to live. and pei, the results came out, you did it and you've certainly done a great job :) i'm really impressed. yes, you still feel heavy hearted to move on, but you did it, you made your first step once again :)

You've always been envy me for i have a place i can go to, cry to, laugh with. You are no different than me :) i'm not a person who can express my feelings to my family nor my friends. what i'm trying to say is, it's all about how you think. argh, my point is, bron and i, will try our best to make arrow the place you wanna go to when you are at your not-so-happy moments.

You never stop surprising me :) you are special you know that?

gosh, i sound like a boyfriend or a crush, i'm neither! psst, i'm her best friend okay.

2011-04-11T17:30:00.002+08:00

Egg frying skills?

my sister likes to eat the egg i fry

she said it tastes really good. haha

i guess the skills was slowly developed when i started eating instant noodles.

i used to cook instant noodles very often

as a result, my dad likes to eat the instant noodles i cook. hahaha

sigh, i miss cooking instant noodles for my dad :)

i wonder if he likes the egg i fried for him :)

miss you daddy

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

2011-04-11T09:36:00.001+08:00

Some things are worth sharing :)

The difference between school & life?
In school, you're taught a lesson & then given a test.
In life, you're given a test that teaches you a lesson.
~Tom Bodett~

2011-04-09T21:49:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday ChaiYune! ;) * huggggssss again *

Partied tonight, one of the hyper-all-night-happy-stressless night.

hahaha

2011-04-06T21:28:00.002+08:00

Disturbia

My facebook account got hacked today.

the worst thing that happened is that

Victor wrote " i love you " on Jon's wall using my account

it was REALLY disturbing

i wouldn't want any scandal to be passed around in Albert house.

it's so disturbing....

p/s: i love happy tree friends :D heh

2011-04-04T08:14:00.000+08:00

When i say it, i mean it.

i'm on a diet :D a super duper diet. haha

2011-04-02T15:21:00.001+08:00

Happy April Fools Day! :D

....

awh man, i missed it =/

2011-04-01T15:55:00.003+08:00

my smile looks different..

ANYWAY

that’s not my point. haha, i’ve been wearing formally to lectures lately

and i will be performing on the 5th of may on the stage (Autumn Festival) together with 2 of my friends.

i will be playing the guitar, jiayun will be playing the piano and pei yinn will be singing =D

oh wait, the three of us will be singing. haha

mm... i have tests on the following week, and hopefully i did well for my lit

love you guys, byeee :)

I have a dream, and it is to be thinner...

2011-03-30T18:53:00.001+08:00

Better and fatter,

i just realised i have this, weigh-gaining-paranoid issue.

i even have nightmares about gaining weight.

2011-03-29T16:56:00.000+08:00

A day i'm better off in bed :)

just a bad headache. a good night sleep and i'll be back to normal again :)

2011-03-26T09:59:00.002+08:00

Just another day at the library :)

2011-03-24T17:52:00.001+08:00

He's still perfect to me in spite of the fact that he....has flaws. =)

it takes time. i'll see what happen =)

pei and che che will probably kill me though,

if they know what's on my mind now.......

which i'm not gonna type it out because, che che's probably reading this.

hi che :P

2011-03-23T15:50:00.002+08:00

my first haircut in Australia, made it memorable ;)

on SPM results-taking day. haha

a day i'm asked to confess too. haha

there's this hairstylist i met, i told her about my crush, and she asked me to confess to him tonight. she's really nice =)

2011-03-20T09:28:00.003+08:00

i’ve gained 3 kg! T.T waaaaaa......

i’m going on a diet again!!